A new day

A new day has begun for me. I started my Phlebotomy class this week. It's been one hell of a week to get through, but I managed. I'm bummed that it's Friday and here I am sitting alone at home instead of being out celebrating the accomplishment that is this week. C'est la vie I suppose. I'm just glad it's over and done with and now I know what to expect from this class.
Life has had it's ups and downs lately. I'm feeling grumpy tonight and bitter, but really things are going well. I'm finally taking control of things and I like that. I like that I can, especially after all this time that I couldn't. I need to get back to taking pictures again. That is something that makes me so happy. I need to be doing the things that make me happy. Right now it's time for me. I'm okay with being selfish at this point. It's the only way things are going to fall into place for me. I gotta do what I gotta do to get there. The people I surround myself with need to support that. I can't settle for less than I deserve and I deserve a hell of a lot. I can finally see that.
I love my babies more than life itself, but I need a break before I go crazy. I hate to ask my parents because lately I feel like it's such an imposition. I wish I had a babysitter that I could call up and have at my disposal. I'm going to have to get out sometime this week or I will lose it. My mind needs that release. I need to get away before I cry myself to sleep endlessly every night.