Time won't give me time and time makes lovers feel like they've got something real

Time passes, people come together, people drift apart. Life moves at alarming rates one day and in slow motion the next. I'm not sure where this post is going or coming from. There was a need to write, a need to release something in this brain of mine tonight. I hate to be ignored. I hate to feel like I am unimportant or what I am saying is less important than what you have to say. I listen. I always listen. It's nice to have someone who can listen to you once in awhile too. 

Starting over is something new for me. I'm learning to navigate as I go and some days are easier than others. I have found myself. I am content with who I am alone, which makes it much easier to be content with someone else. I'm trying to figure out how things work in this new world I've been thrust into. When do I broach certain subjects? How? I'm beginning to see how easy this summer really was, when the whole time I found it to be super complicated. I'm happy now, that is the true difference. I think my fear is losing that. Being happy again, after being unhappy for so long, is a welcome feeling and one I am not looking to lose any time soon. Maintaining this happiness is the challenge. It's the place where I've got to put in work and really hope that the equal amount of work is being put in by another as well. 

It's all a bunch of nonsense tonight, but it is what it is. I'm here, ready to drift off to sleep and now my mind is free of the randomness that it needed to be rid of. Maybe this time I'll get it right.......